Ya know Wes I still am trying to figure out why you did it. Every day I see you and me together in the picture on my desk and I remember how much better things were back then. Nothing has ever been the same. Some days I just all of the sudden think about you and I just stand there and then I remember that you're gone. Without you, I haven't done anything really so far this summer. It's been hard to be happy lately and things have just been spiraling downwards. I miss buying tons of candy then just playing games together. I can't even express how much I miss that. When I compare my life now, to back then, I just... really really want to go back. I still think back to March 27th when we were together. Something wasn't right that night. I didn't realize it at the time and I regret it. You just seemed mad. But then for some reason you wanted to all of the sudden do "normal stuff". We had our typical sword fight then we just sat down and talked. That night I stayed over at your house later. I wish I would've known. You took your own life only hours after you walked me home. Something made you want to do that. Nowadays it's a lot harder to remember all of the details but I just wonder if I just said one little thing, maybe I could've saved his life. But now there's nothing I can do but move on, but it's gonna be hard without you.